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On a night like this... [Aug. 8th, 2004|03:44 am]
Miss Von Trapp
[Mood |crazycrazy]
[Music |humbuzz of computer and tapping of keys in hot dead air.]

It's another of *those* nights...long dark drawn-out tedious swamping hot night of sleepless rotting in my room.

Didn't wake up till 9pm yesterday evening - due to the marathon of up-ness from 5pm Friday till 2pm yesterday - work and shifting things...

So I've spent all night packing the rest of my room up, pondering on the rest and how to organise it, and the tangled mess I seem to have gotten myself into over the years...that I am slowly but surely crawling my way up out of now.

I have been listening to 'Vision Thing' and reading Jack Kerouac's 'Big Sur' - been a long time since I read any Kerouac - ten years since 'On The Road', and I'm back in the beat - feeling like writing prose rather than sparse poetry...submerged in the heady language of it all...

Too much coffee, lack of cigarettes and reading at ungodly hours in a still, suffocating night is playing havoc in my brain lol...so much so that I got scribbling again; used to sit in sixth-form common room (1991) writing stuff I was doing as soon as it happened and as soon as I thought it...was so bored this evening that I put pen to paper and did it again:

*covers eyes*

Boredom Exercise: Capturing mood and describing surroundings.

Oh one forty one am. Lying on my back on my blue-covered bed, mattress sinking arm over forehead. Ponder. Sandman on wall above - arms outstretched with black crows flap crows. Lamp lit beside me, Big Sur bent open at chapter twelve beside butts in ashtray (actually a plastic chocolate milk bottle lid - but works rather well...
Pen ran out - and I reach up again to find another - dig fingersdeep through rubble in messy bag inkblack gel roller now splodging on scruffy notebook where I keep my ideas growing and scribbling across each bag-stuff crumpled page because I havent shut it. I NEED a cigarette and am out of tobacco.
The radio is silenced and contemplating old butts - no to those - scan the room seeing bags of books and videos photos in packets paint tubes old log that I thought looked mossynice and rested on my radiator in front of a green white striped hoop for a time. My room is packed and could be empty - a shell a hell - remove it all tomorrow and leave a space for more more to move.

I think I had better stop here - I need the loo, can feel the bladder ache and push - it is dark outside and I can hear the soft blowing of the night across roofs and treetops - do you spell it roofs or rooves - roofs (and rooves) look odd somehow now I wrote it.

Stopping now. Bored and this is timewasting braingarble - coffee, cigarette of some sort and niagara falls awaits. O1.49am. Shouldn't have woken at 9 and I'm torn between two worlds of sleep and wake before movement and liftage shiftage tommorrow. Bugger!


...............

Oh dear.

I expect Big Sur will be finished by sun-up and I won't be going back;)

missbumpkin is helping me mooove today, and vashe has just this second scared me with a groundhog day type photo incident thing and (OH WOW!!!) a really cool logo designed by goff...see here: I AM IN AWE!!!!!

*dazed and confused* at this:



(and yes, OF COURSE, it's now on my website with a proud and happy link)

.........................

One of my lj friends (I think the post was friends only so I'm not going to name here) posed this question:

Q: Since we are all mortal, we are all going to die, then is not the creation of civilisation filling us with false hopes that there is anything more ?

To which my answer was (and I rather had an ironic epiphany at that point):

A: There is nothing more than what we create around us, and if we create something good it will be better for whoever we leave behind...which brings me to this thought - there's nothing more for us - just whoever down the line after us gets to reach sodding nirvana.

Bastards... I think the Egyptians were trying to leave us a visual lesson in Pyramid selling lol!!


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And yes, Hollandia: Bavarian lager beer, 3.99 for 10 bottles (but I've only had two) is a GOOD thing not a BAD thing...
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-08 01:10 pm (UTC)
Hey just looked at the site... I did pretty ok with that:)

I feel CHUFFED now:)
thankew:)

(((HUGZ)))

Btw I am about to toon you:)

Hope thats ok!
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-08 02:17 pm (UTC)
Pressie...

the pics a bit big but I hope you like it!

Especially for Youuu.

HUGZ

Feel free to sign my Guestbook:) *smiles*

hugz Darwin (Goff Artist fella kinda guy like thingie bob)

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Pressie...

the pics a bit big but I hope you like it!

Especially for Youuu.

HUGZ

Feel free to sign my Guestbook:) *smiles*

hugz Darwin (Goff Artist fella kinda guy like thingie bob)

<img src="http://www.darwiniantheory.co.uk/lj/vashe/vampster.bmp"">
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-09 12:39 pm (UTC)
OMG!! WOW!!

(I just woke up and saw this)

That looks amazing! Thankyou so much:)

(is off to sign guestbook btw)

*big hugs back*
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-09 01:05 pm (UTC)
Thanks for signing:)

Sorry about doing youas the waking dead
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-09 10:34 pm (UTC)
Don't apologise lol!

I *am* the waking dead. Especially at the moment as I work 10pm to 6am nightshift full time (which I am used to now) but am in the middle of moving house and have to be up all hours sorting out junk;)
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-10 12:14 am (UTC)
Ooooh your a Shifter!


Dunno why but SHIFTER sounds good:)

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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-10 08:46 am (UTC)
Depends what you're shifting hehe;)
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-10 11:05 am (UTC)
That ccould be taken Sooo many ways lol
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-10 10:39 pm (UTC)
Oh yeah? And what ways would those be?

*snort*
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-10 09:33 am (UTC)
I've done this for my .co.uk with that lovely toon...hope you don't mind;)

(I'm a bit crap with PSP)

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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-12 05:01 pm (UTC)
If you want a Co UK one doing feel free to ask ya know:)

Will make you a special one
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-12 08:17 pm (UTC)
Well I wouldn't mind...just didn't want to ask lol;)

*hides*
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-13 04:54 am (UTC)
i wil have a lil play later today when the sun goes down and see what comes up for you
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-13 05:20 am (UTC)
Ooo-er!! WAY way too much innuendo potential there hehe...

*zips mouth*
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-13 05:24 am (UTC)
Lol

At least your human:)

Would be wrong if you didnt see any double meanings!
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-13 05:30 am (UTC)
I should hope I'm human...

*checks all areas for protruding metal*

OMG!! MY LIP!!!! MY EARS!!! I'M A ROBOT!!!

(ok, I need to get off the computer NOW)
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-13 05:51 am (UTC)
yep.. i think downtime is needed.. your probably gonna have to reinstall yourself now and get usb2 compliant ya know!

I am a DOSser I guess:)
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-13 08:31 am (UTC)
Noooooooooo!!!!!!

DOSser? AmigaDOS perchance?

(fondly remembers the days of c64 and A1200 fun)
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[User Picture]From: goff
2004-08-13 08:59 am (UTC)
actually zx basic
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-13 06:58 pm (UTC)
Wow! All I can remember about basic is how to make the flashing borders on the c64 and enter pokes to cheat at games using the Action Replay cartridge lol!
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-08-13 08:32 am (UTC)
Yes, I was deliberately ignoring the innuendo potentials here...
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