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Stop the World I want to get off!!! [Dec. 16th, 2003|06:11 am]
Miss Von Trapp
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[Music |The Faint : Agenda Suicide]

I am so incredibly knackered...but I'm too busy to stop!!

After my drunken 'over-doing it' session on Saturday (a full day of theatre on 3 hours sleep and then a drunken punk night out immediately after the last show) I slept till 6pm Sunday, then had to go and visit my sister and the screaming child-bastards to say happy birthday...then on to mothers to make small talk with the grandparents...

(how they got a fire alarm wakeup at 1am in the Moathouse hotel etc etc...yawn!!)

Dad dropped me home at 10pm that Sunday night and I then began watching the videos of Weird Cabaret...right from last March, 5 videos of 2hrs each in all...and drinking a good bottle of red that I had purloined from my mother...

This filled time until 7am, where I nearly got run over going to the shop for more tobacco, and got to bed Monday morning, drunk and quite happy at approx 8am.

Slept all day Monday (yesterday) until approx 5pm, when I woke with a start and realised I had to be in work in an hour...at 6pm to do a 12 hour shift...

Work was rather fun...discovered that I am in the Herald in the Grand Vizier outfit...and now EVERYBODY has seen it...got a bit silly toward the end of the evening on account of general fatigue.

Friday is a 'dress up day' for Xmas...we have already decided what to wear...Terri is going to be a fairy, I'm going to wear a wedding dress and wings and be a fairy gothmother...and Jean (in her 50's, artist) is going to wear a BEARD!!! It will be SO funny and I MUST take pictures...

My schedule this week is rather nuts, so I might not be on much...

I'm so busy at the moment that whenever I get a free evening I'm ignoring the phone, ignoring everybody else but me, getting drunk and watching movies/playing loud music...so much work and theatre and very little subsequent time for myself means I HAVE to shut out EVERYBODY in order to preserve some sanity...I NEED TO DO THIS...

I've NEVER had time to myself before...not been properly alone in my own company in 10 years...always having to look after/deal with someone else and be utterly selfless, making light of my own stresses or pushing them under the carpet entirely so that I could permanently be there for them...therefore I never properly understood other peoples need to behave like this when busy and stressed either as a result of that and have been a *bit* demanding... sort of "if I can be permanently available for people, why can't they?"...which is appalling behaviour on my part and quite stupid, as I didn't see that I was simply being too damn nice to those whom I was putting myself out for, easily walked over by them and I NEVER EVER spared a thought for my own wellbeing...

Now, almost entirely free of those burdens, I am finally able to, and HAVE to make solitary time for myself for the first time in my life...I NEED the empty-head-space wherever I can grab it between work and theatre, quite frankly, and the blissful numbness that it brings : being alone with nobody else to worry about but myself!!

My heartfelt apologies to those concerned, it took massive upheavals, but now I understand fully:((


I'm going to be like this until Panto is over...I'm not capable of thinking much more than two days or so in advance at the moment...xmas hasn't registered in its nearness even...I can't focus on anything further ahead than a week and on whether or not I'm in theatre...

Seems like I'm never out of work or theatre...ought to have a bed made up in both places lol!!

OK...up until Xmas and over...:

Today: 6pm - 6am Work (4hrs sleep after)
Wednesday: 1pm Theatre call and show till 5pm, work 9pm-6am
Thursday: 6pm - 6am work (4 hrs sleep after)
Friday: 1pm theatre call for matinee, evening show, late to work at 11pm-6am (4 hrs sleep after)
Saturday: 1pm theatre call for matinee, evening show...alcohol abuse after.
Sunday : 1pm theatre call for matinee.

Monday: 10pm-6am work (shopping?)
Tuesday: 9pm - 6am work
Xmas Eve : 1pm theatre call for matinee, evening show...go home and die at 10pm...
Xmas: NO PLANS AT ALL...have to visit the parents even tho I don't want to...but will come back here and get drunk on my own alone after 5pm probably. Bah Humbug!
Boxing Day: No idea either.
Saturday: Black Catz Night PARTY!!!!!!! WILL DEFINATELY BE OUT!!!
Sunday : (hungover) 1pm theatre call for matinee

Monday : 10pm to 6am work
Tuesday : 1pm theatre call for matinee, LAST EVENING SHOW...late for work at 11pm-6am.
NEW YEARS EVE : No plans...probably drunk on my own somewhere...indoors with a bottle watching Jools' Hootenanny like last year I expect.

Busy lass, eh??
No rest for the wicked...I must have been very wicked...hope this doesn't mean I'll get no presents tho:/

*yawn*

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Oh how dull...and I have the feathers already...mother gave me 3 lovely ostrich feathers on Sunday!!

What will you get in your stocking this Christmas? by spiritluv
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Sticking out the top:A Feather (use your imagination)
Somewhere in the middle:Ohh Whipped Cream!
Resting in the heel:Instructions to give head. NOW.
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Comments:
From: defcon9
2003-12-16 12:15 am (UTC)

Weird Cabaret

Is Weird Cabaret a band?
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-16 12:18 am (UTC)

Re: Weird Cabaret

It's a show...new theme every time...more work everytime...etc etc...

See here: http://www.vampgirl.netdreamers.co.uk/projects.html
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From: shardofmany
2003-12-16 01:09 am (UTC)
Glad to see you are putting your self first.
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From: wildgift93
2003-12-16 01:42 am (UTC)
Hey does that Saturday alcohol abuse involve me by any chance? We are coming to watch your Panto that night.

Oh and the Black Catz X-mas thingy...can I come with???

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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-16 06:29 am (UTC)
Both of those occasions most certainly involve you:))
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From: sadiecakes
2003-12-16 07:37 am (UTC)
Ooh me too, a Saturday when I am actaully not working, can I come too please?
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From: wildgift93
2003-12-16 02:54 pm (UTC)
I have bad news...I can't go...the in-laws are coming to visit that weekend.

*sobs uncontrollably*
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-16 10:16 pm (UTC)
AAAAAA!!!

Well, I have two shows xmas eve...and the schedule is on the board as twere;)
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From: wildgift93
2003-12-16 11:36 pm (UTC)
No, I'm going to the Panto thingy This Sat...It's the Black Catz thingy I can't go to...however...I still might try to sneak out for mybe a couple hours and meet you guys there. It's naughty I know but i can't resist the temptation.
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-16 10:17 pm (UTC)
Like you need me to allow you to order a ticket for whenever!!

*grin*
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From: wildgift93
2003-12-18 03:54 pm (UTC)
It's just going to be the two of us on Christmas... so come and get drunk with us and be merry. Don't know if you got my text but you're invited Boxing Day as well to pig out, drink copious amounts of alcohol and watch movies. Rumour has it 'Withnail and I' is going to be served on a silver platter! You better come girly... I got pressie for you.
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-18 04:47 pm (UTC)
I'll be there!!:))

*hugs*
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From: wildgift93
2003-12-18 05:39 pm (UTC)
Shall we get film for the camera...knowing what a ham you are.
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-18 05:44 pm (UTC)
Probably a good idea, yes!!
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