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Part of the damned furniture as usual... [Nov. 13th, 2003|05:26 pm]
Miss Von Trapp
[Mood |bit fluey...]
[Music |Diamanda Galas : Do you take this man?]

Oh crap!

I just got out of bed...

Yes, I have probably missed all rehearsals today but nobody rang me to ask where I was so I assume they didn't happen anyway.

I'm sat here with a mug of Lemon and Ginger tea, with an EXTREMELY raw throat and sore glands...owwwwwwwww!!!!!!!

I overdid it yesterday. Panto rehearsals in the afternoon were fine, went to the bank at 4pm, bumped into some friends and wandered about for half an hour before going back to theatre...

Then I started getting a bit tired...had a coffee and carried on.

First off, I'm a professional performer and REMEMBER what my director tells me to do from weeks back, and I do not appreciate being snapped at by him when I know what I'm doing and say so...okay, I did get an apology, but I was upset by then...

And secondly...when you've spent hours and days researching a particular song for cabaret and you've been singing it for the last 3 weeks at least in rehearsal and you KNOW you can deliver it in EXACTLY the same performance style as the director requires...but it gets given to someone else, older, with a weaker voice and who says to me 'I'll have to come to you for pointers'...because everytime we sing something...for example, harmony last night...they look/listen to me for the right note...

I have a very strong voice, good pitch and have been brought up singing solos/choir etc since aged 11...good projection and performance sense too...(parents are music teachers)...so it pisses me off when I get 'used' and things I've put in a LOT of effort on, and pride in, get passed over to someone else.

I've always had that feeling with my local theatre that I'm a part of the woodwork...I do SO much, work damn hard to a good standard...and yet if you come in from the cold saying 'I'm an actor, luvvie' and haven't been there from it's beginnings you get offered the professional work...AND PAID!!!!!!!

After the panto is over...(Panto is fine btw, I love our director for that...he came from the Hub Theatre school recently and is pretty much being used too...) I seriously think it's time to move on, and to concentrate on MY career, rather than being reliable and FREE.

You'll be pleased to note I was a *bit* assertive last night...I was so pissed off by 8pm and was supposed to be in cabaret rehearsals till 9:30 and rush to work...

I went to my director at 8pm and said 'I'm going! I've got too much stress today and I need time out to recover before work.' He said 'But you're going at 9 (instead of 10)'. I said 'And at 9 I will have to rush to work and won't have any time to unwind. I'm going to the pub.'

And left.

Jojo was helpful tho, and said some nice things:)...so I went to the pub, had half a beer...and wandered off up to work...spoke on the phone for a bit which made me feel MUCH MUCH happier, and calmed me down a lot...had a good night at work...too many glucose tablets though...

So I got home at about 4 this morning...we were let out early...and went straight to bed...and have been there ever since...hot flushes and raw throat...dagnabit.

So I overdid it yesterday. And am now feeling a bit fluey...bugger.

I should take more vitamins and look after myself rather than whore myself out with 'yes I can do that rehearsal'...'don't worry if I've only had 3 hours sleep and have a nightshift...I can do it!'.

Wish I'd think about my health before I open my mouth sometimes...

/Rant off

Well I could bold all of it...except the ones I crossed out as they're not me...

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

From: wildgift93
2003-11-13 10:02 am (UTC)


*big huge healing hugs*
Sorry to hear you are poorly. Please try to get better. I am depending on you to make me smile and laugh on Saturday night...you're my partner in crime.
*another hug*
That sucks big time about theatre. All that dedication you give them. They aren't ever gonna find someone as passionate as you who is willing to put in as much work and self-sacrifice.
What are they thinking for fuck sake? Are they mad? If you walk...they have lost a huge asset! They need to get clue over there...but hey...this is Plymouth...clues are a rarety!!!
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-11-13 11:28 am (UTC)


They just take me for granted...have been there since I was about 14 y'see...

Ho hum.

Looking forward to Saturday:))
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From: wildgift93
2003-11-13 12:09 pm (UTC)


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[User Picture]From: vimster
2003-11-13 04:58 pm (UTC)


Someone else I know online is doing a drama course. She's having the same problem as you: the director just takes her for granted, and when things go wrong, he just slags everyone off, in an irritating off-hand way - at first I thought this was the way it works, but how they get any respect I don't know. *huug*
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From: vile_temptress
2003-11-13 10:03 am (UTC)
Ginger tea is great.
I hope you are feeling better soon.
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-11-13 11:30 am (UTC)
Me too...I can't afford to be ill...and I need my voice for theatre!!

Lots of drugs and throat sweets it is I fear...

And I HAVE to smoke less...that can't have helped yesterday...I was so stressed I literally chain-smoked all day!!!!!!!

I'm resolved not to have a smoke until this current throat thing goes away now...need gum instead!
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[User Picture]From: dvlsown
2003-11-13 11:23 am (UTC)

'nother June kid...

Heya from the States. (Vim is the friend-in-common, btw.) You crossed out a lot less of the "June" traits than I did. :D

Sorry to hear about the theatre stuff. Been going through more than a bit of "use & abuse" (and NOT the fun kind) at work, myself. Hang in there, and hope things work out for you.
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-11-13 11:27 am (UTC)

Re: 'nother June kid...

I'm typically Gemini...so they pretty much ALL applied to me in one way or 'tother;)

Thanks for the theatre comment btw...very much appreciated:))

I'll be busy there till the end of December with Panto...the Weird Cabaret is the end of this month...so I'll hold out till January and see where I go in the new year!

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[User Picture]From: dvlsown
2003-11-13 11:42 am (UTC)

Re: 'nother June kid...

Heh...just waitin' for ya to hit Broadway so I can actually see ya. (Though if Vim had his way, I'd come visit there a lot sooner.) *GRIN*
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[User Picture]From: vimster
2003-11-13 04:41 pm (UTC)

Re: 'nother June kid...

Oh yes? ;)
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[User Picture]From: dvlsown
2003-11-14 07:34 am (UTC)

Re: 'nother June kid...

Vim: Pfft...you know I'd come visit. We'd go terrorize London. (Well, the pubs & clubs, anyway.) :D
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From: sadiecakes
2003-11-14 03:41 pm (UTC)
Argghhh, feeling your anguish
Experienced a very similar thing, in respect to soemething that I ahd been involved in since its early days, and then got passed over for some fresh faces when things started to get going and make money, its so often the way.
I don't offer much in the way of advice here, esp as I am still reeling from my own recent experience , but thinking of you, and virtually hugging you
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-11-15 10:16 am (UTC)

*hugs back*
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