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My god I'm worn out!!!
I was falling asleep at work for a minute at a time and waking with a jolt at the keyboard last night/this morning between 4 and 6am...got home and, by the time I'd wound my brain down, fell into bed listening to Faure's Requiem (Opus 48, Sanctus) at about 7am...
Was supposed to be going to my mothers to set up her new computer at 1pm...but she rang me and I sleepily informed her I was too tired so went back to sleep...not that I was all that awake when I spoke to her...half in-half out of a dream of rivers and tunnels...
She told me she's packed up my cello as I haven't had time to play it in a month or so...and it was lying around upstairs out of the case. Makes me feel bad...I really ought to bring it back here, but I have no time!!
Only just woke up now at 5pm...supposed to be leaving for another 12 hour shift at ten past...(start at 6pm, on til 6am)...but I'm still so sleepy and exhausted that I've just rung up and cancelled it. Will go in at 9 as per usual...after which I shall have 4 hours sleep tommorrow morning and into theatre for two shows and a night full of work without a break...
AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! I'm slowly killing myself lol
So now here I am...still brain-addled...but at least I have 4 hours in which to wake properly, have something to eat and drink and prepare rather than rush in from duvet to big furry grey coat in under 20 mins...
I have a bit of a cold...not surprising considering I'm not eating properly and working too hard...one of those coughs that if you cough too much you end up being nearly sick. Not nice.
I severely hate this time of year...it's freezing, dark, miserable and depressing...and everyone being jovial and jolly, full of xmas spirit around me, when I have bills and lots of hard work to be dealing with. The xmas theatre period is a nightmare, especially when coupled with work...and there's so much of it...we are processing about 3 million items of mail a night...all badly written cards that you can barely read...or half-addressed mail and cards with only a name on that have been posted by accident. The literacy level of this country is appalling...if people were taught to write properly...or even how to address an envelope correctly I'd have far far less to moan about!
I seriously need to do some tidying...my living room is a mess of empty cigarette packets, wine bottles, clothes, odd bags of theatre things...the kitchen is 'untidy' too... The problem is I'm hardly here at the moment except for to sleep...I'm coming in from work/theatre, dumping my bags on the floor, having a drink and a cigarette and going straight to bed...then getting up, grabbing what I need and dashing out again to be at theatre/work within an hour of waking... I'm allocating Monday for xmas shopping and Tuesday for tidying...xmas eve I have two shows anyway and will go to the pub afterwards. I need to invest in some caffeine tablets as my regular filter stuff is doing nothing for me anymore...
Well, I was going to have an interesting point to this post...a topic for discussion or something...but my brain isn't functioning on anything more than a neanderthal level...eat drink sleep work...no literary flights of fancy for me today!!
Ho hum. Need more coffee.