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Falling apart at the seams... [Dec. 18th, 2003|05:09 pm]
Miss Von Trapp
[Mood |draineddrained]
[Music |Bach : "Air on a G String" (the eternal comedy of knickers!)]

My god I'm worn out!!!

I was falling asleep at work for a minute at a time and waking with a jolt at the keyboard last night/this morning between 4 and 6am...got home and, by the time I'd wound my brain down, fell into bed listening to Faure's Requiem (Opus 48, Sanctus) at about 7am...

Was supposed to be going to my mothers to set up her new computer at 1pm...but she rang me and I sleepily informed her I was too tired so went back to sleep...not that I was all that awake when I spoke to her...half in-half out of a dream of rivers and tunnels... She told me she's packed up my cello as I haven't had time to play it in a month or so...and it was lying around upstairs out of the case. Makes me feel bad...I really ought to bring it back here, but I have no time!!

Only just woke up now at 5pm...supposed to be leaving for another 12 hour shift at ten past...(start at 6pm, on til 6am)...but I'm still so sleepy and exhausted that I've just rung up and cancelled it. Will go in at 9 as per usual...after which I shall have 4 hours sleep tommorrow morning and into theatre for two shows and a night full of work without a break...

AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! I'm slowly killing myself lol

So now here I am...still brain-addled...but at least I have 4 hours in which to wake properly, have something to eat and drink and prepare rather than rush in from duvet to big furry grey coat in under 20 mins...

I have a bit of a cold...not surprising considering I'm not eating properly and working too hard...one of those coughs that if you cough too much you end up being nearly sick.  Not nice.

I severely hate this time of year...it's freezing, dark, miserable and depressing...and everyone being jovial and jolly, full of xmas spirit around me, when I have bills and lots of hard work to be dealing with.  The xmas theatre period is a nightmare, especially when coupled with work...and there's so much of it...we are processing about 3 million items of mail a night...all badly written cards that you can barely read...or half-addressed mail and cards with only a name on that have been posted by accident.  The literacy level of this country is appalling...if people were taught to write properly...or even how to address an envelope correctly I'd have far far less to moan about!

I seriously need to do some tidying...my living room is a mess of empty cigarette packets, wine bottles, clothes, odd bags of theatre things...the kitchen is 'untidy' too... The problem is I'm hardly here at the moment except for to sleep...I'm coming in from work/theatre, dumping my bags on the floor, having a drink and a cigarette and going straight to bed...then getting up, grabbing what I need and dashing out again to be at theatre/work within an hour of waking... I'm allocating Monday for xmas shopping and Tuesday for tidying...xmas eve I have two shows anyway and will go to the pub afterwards.  I need to invest in some caffeine tablets as my regular filter stuff is doing nothing for me anymore...

Well, I was going to have an interesting point to this post...a topic for discussion or something...but my brain isn't functioning on anything more than a neanderthal level...eat drink sleep work...no literary flights of fancy for me today!!

Ho hum.  Need more coffee.

My LiveJournal 12 Days
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12 alienfoxs a-tickling.
11 discordic_frogs a-skipping.
10 djvexts a-dancing.
9 eldritch00s a-chuckling.
8 etceterates a-laughing.
7 g3ms a-grinding.
6 mehdi_capss a-wiggling.
5 ruby sadiecakess.
4 tripping serpentbearers.
3 Welsh sirmankeys.
2 terrapin vimsters.
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From: defcon9
2003-12-18 10:05 am (UTC)
Everybody kills themselves. It's a part of life. In fact, that's what life - slowrate suicide in overtime.
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[User Picture]From: eldritch00
2003-12-18 10:17 am (UTC)
Would that I could have nine of myself chuckling...I'm having trouble even with just one. T_T
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[User Picture]From: etceterate
2003-12-18 11:58 am (UTC)
Ditto with the laughing. I keep thinking it's Friday today, so I'll be expecting a weekend tomorrow and will have to work! wildgift93 always seems to end up in a tree - some people have all the luck...
Oh, and think of it this way - if people could address an envelope correctly you'd probably be out of a job...
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-18 12:03 pm (UTC)
I'm having terrible trouble remembering what day it is...

But I'd not necessarily be out of a job...the system hasn't learnt to auto-reco all the place names yet...and some of the business mail is very badly printed too...even if it's perfectly written it still has to be keyed, but it's so much EASIER!!!

Bloody patterned envelopes, ones written in xmassy gold pen etc etc...drive me nuts!!
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[User Picture]From: vimster
2003-12-18 12:23 pm (UTC)

let's try again....

Oh my god! Not you and all??? Today I was convinced it's Friday -
1) I was waiting for the new NTK to arrive, which it tends to late Friday afternoon, and
2) I usually have this 'critical look at the media' on Radio 4 at 4.30 Fridays, turned it on, it was some science programme - doh.
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[User Picture]From: vimster
2003-12-18 12:35 pm (UTC)
You just see jolly Christmassy people? All i see are stressed-out, needlessly-panicking types - "Oh what do I get so-and-so? When's late openning? Damn, no parking spaces! Darren! Get back here, you little sod!" etc.

Actually, you know that book The Beauty Myth by Naomi Klein, which basically says women will never attain full happainess where it comes to their looks because the cosmetics and fashion industry sets the bar high enough so women constantly strive, but never get there? There should be the Christmas Myth, where people are expected to do all this in order to have fun and be good, but it'll never happen, it's too tall an order, etc.

... and if you understood that, explain it back to me.

Phew, right, yes, back to it.
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[User Picture]From: mehdi_caps
2003-12-19 05:43 am (UTC)
I'm also a fan of Fauré's Requiem, especially the Sanctus.

*Saaaaaaaaaanctus, saa-aan-ctus*

I listened to it several times this week.

Why am I wiggling? *confused*
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-19 10:08 pm (UTC)
Absolutely no idea as to why you are wiggling...perhaps it's in a dancing context??

I used to sing the Requiem with the Plymouth Philharmonic Choir when I was younger...and lots of other classical choral pieces...my father was one of the conductors and the organ/piano accompanist (sp?).

(My parents are both music teachers, so I had very little choice in the matter lol...not a bad thing tho, since I could NEVER live without music!!)
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[User Picture]From: serpentbearer
2003-12-19 02:31 pm (UTC)
I'm starting to wonder if someone's trying to tell me something on this Livejournal 12 Days thing - I was tripping on agnetha's journal too. Perhaps they've put something in the water - it would explain a lot!
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2003-12-19 10:29 pm (UTC)
It works alphabetically...wildgift and I are up all the trees lolol!!
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