I really have no proper idea!!
That's half the problem...I don't know what job I want to be in other than acting, yet I feel like I ought to have a 'proper job' to cover those periods of unemployment...
I had a place at Barts Hosp in London to do a degree in Nursing...but *circumstances* (not of my own making) prevented me from going, so I had to give up...probably a lucky escape as that would have physically and mentally killed me eventually...
I like being involved in all aspects of creative media...with theatre I'm always helping with set, design, costume, directing, mentoring the younger performers...advertising...
I get very passionate about advertising, particularly when I see people severely neglecting it at clubs and other places when I *know* I could sort it out for them if I had the time...
I wanted to be an explorer when I was little...and a journalist, and a newsreader...and even a game warden or to go out and live on an American Indian reservation and help there...
I'd also like to work as a writer, an illustrator, short films...I spent a lot of time when I was younger writing fantasy novels and comedy star trek/red dwarf scripts...entire series with visual directions as well as text all timed to the minute to fit a 25 min show slot...
I have too many ideas, and a lack of ability to settle on just ONE as my chosen career path...
2003-12-27 09:35 am (UTC)
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The problem is, as you get older and experince more and more, it becomes harder and harder to get excited about anything, because there's so much more that your subconscious has to compute when it's trying to tie these things into your 'life', how it relates to everything else, which invariaby invludes comparisons. It's what gives rise to phrases like "x isn't like it used to be" and "y is rubbish these days", it's what fuels the nostalgia industry.
Sometimes the past is a burden.
2003-12-26 11:19 pm (UTC)
Whoa! I'm reading a narnia book right now and when I finish it I have another one next...."The Magician's Nephew" and "The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe". I've started being an adult at 17 years old when my mother died. Now that I'm actually an adult physically and in age I'm craving for a taste of that lost childhood I never really have experienced. I'm just saying that you can be an adult and a child at the same time.
Royal Mail doesn't make me happy...if it weren't for the friends there I would go insane with boredom!! But financially I have no other option at the moment...
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in my opinion, the only people that see people in the whole "adult" "child" sort of way are the people who fit naturally into that niche. if you dont fit there, then it probably doesnt apply to you. i really dont think people ever 'grow up'. ill be 20 in a few weeks, and i got yu-gi-oh cards and a neo-pet for xmas, both of which are fantastic! thats my take on it anyway :D
btw - you should so make all your posts into a book or something, you'v probably got enouth material there for a sequel as well!!!! :D
It would be a nightmare to fictionalize...maybe I should print them off for my memoirs when I'm 80 lol!!
OOh...which Neo-pet did you get btw?
I have a box of about 20 Tamagotchis...3 generations of Bandai ones...
I cried for 2 hours when Cuthbert da Gotchi died...no medicine, play or food would help him at the end (Mimitchi : 31 days and the level below the top one...I had a book too lol)...it was so distressing!!!
I know exactly how you feel. I'm 32 at the end of January, and frankly haven't grown up yet. You're right, paperwork, bills, important stuff feels almost like an intrusion, something to get out of the way so you can get back to what it was you were doing. It's odd to think that for some, that is their life, dealing with all that then going to bed.
Thinking about it, growing up usually involves giving something of yourself up in favour of something 'important', be that children or an all-consuming career in a non-arts, non-academic area, you know, banking and the like. Grown-ups have the concept of the hobby, a segregated activity, utterly different to that of work, whereas young-minded people have things they do normally, work, bills and the like are just obstacles. Okay, so it's rather simplistic, but it's how I see it.
I wouldn't worry too much about being 30, it's only the 'grown-ups' who resent the sacrifices they had to make in order to be where they are that make you feel guilty. The feeling that you should be doing something more constructive isn't a desire to grow up.
Bah, it's the hinterland between Christmas and New Years (as John Shuttleworth said "Too late to sing The Holly And The Ivy, too early to buy a cut-price diary"), I must go away and drink, and leave you to do the same, albeit in a funkier outfit.
Wow, reading this post was almost like reading my own thoughts, I could identify with so much of what you said.
Every time i try to write this reply I give up - I have so much i want to say I don't know where to begin. So I will say simply this - the world needs people like you. It needs dreamers and visionaries. Please don't feel that you have to act a certain way because you are a certain age.
I am coming to terms with the idea of having to be 'grown up' - I have started to realise that being childlike is just how I am. It's how I manage to get through life. When the mundane threatens to drag me down, I can escape into my imagination. I haven't lost that feeling of wonder at the world around me that we all have (or should have) as children - a sense that there is always something amazing around the next corner.
When I'm an old lady I want to splash in puddles, kick autumn leaves about, have 'adventures' with characters in my favourite books, dress up as a witch or a knight or Robin Hood, paint my face, make paper planes, hold tea parties for my stuffed toys, dream of being a rock star, sing along to loud music, I could go on with this forever but you get the idea.
Don't grow up. If nothing else it'll make me feel better knowing there's someone else out there to hold dolly tea parties with when I'm 90!
Thankyou so much for that:)
It is a form of escape I know, but it's so much better than sinking into mundanity!
*huggles her Snoopy and smiles happily*
Fancy a tea party?
sounds like you have the makings if a perfect 30yr old to me :)
You said you liked Disney's Beauty and the Beast, what are your thoughts on Cocteau's Beauty and the Beast?
I've not seen it!!
I really ought to, don't you think?:)
It is incredibly sublime!
So, yeah, you should look into that!