||[Jan. 2nd, 2004|08:23 pm]
Miss Von Trapp
|||||Mogwai : Killing All The Flies||]|
I think I'm going into another artistic slump.
This happens every year after panto is over...I've been sleeping 12 hours a day, and getting up with no inclination whatsoever to do anything, and feeling tired and lethargic...generally unenthusiastic for no reason at all.
I got up at 6:30pm, it was all dark as yet another bulb has blown, yet it took me until 8pm to get up enough muster to go out to the shop to buy lightbulbs, milk, tobacco...
Back now, have to go to work in half an hour. Don't really want to go...well not that...more like, can't be arsed and have no real desire to be there or anywhere except for the fact that I NEED to if I am to ever have enough cash to survive.
I just don't want to do anything at all. I just want to stay in bed and sleep. Nothing holds any interest for me...music, tv, shopping...ANYTHING.
I'm low and cold and tired and I just can't be bothered with things.
Hopefully this will clear as soon as I get started on Weird Cabaret again on the 14th...but in the meantime the lethargy has set in and I'm depressed again.
It's the sudden drop from theatre euphoria...to nothing. That's what always gets to me...one minute bright lights, colourful costumes and a massive 'family' rapport...not to mention the stress...next minute : housework, bills, being alone with nothing to do and suddenly no one to talk to and get excited about creative projects with.
I need something to occupy my mind...I'm going nuts with boredom:((