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Don't forget to breathe!!! [Mar. 7th, 2004|02:58 am]
Miss Von Trapp
[Mood |scaredscared]

*shaking and shivering*

First theatre nightmare : Just woke up and feel utterly freaked out.

It went on for what seemed like several hours, with lots of detail...this is a shortened version...the 'key points' of what I remember...

Was doing some performance of Weird Cabaret in a hotel bar which was going horribly wrong, friends were leaving etc...Mark was horribly drunk and being sick everywhere...I was the only one sober.

Got everybody back to the place we were staying...a bit like work, but with chairs and a dormitory where the breakout area should be... Some other actors arrived after having done some other project...we spoke to them and waited for ages for Mark to come back. He was in a meeting...didn't show up so we all fell asleep in the chairs...

Woke up (still within the dream) after having nightmares within the dream of walking down a road into blackness and then being unable to see, and unable to walk out of the blackness...another one in which I was attempting to climb some sort of ladder in the dark but kept slipping back down; two of many dreams...

Upon waking, found that I'd fallen asleep in the bathroom with a plastic chair on top of me...saw a long list of 'dream-types' with a scale to indicate where I'd got to on that scale in terms of 'managing' the fear situations...

Was consoled by a friend...discovered that the dreams I'd been having were following some sort of experimental pattern.

Went back to the dormitory and asked if anyone else had just had nightmares...they all had. Thinking we've been set up by Mark as part of the Weird Cabaret research, as the theme this time is 'Madness'.

We realise that we are sleeping in an old converted asylum.

There is a small black dog in my bed.

I get in and start to snuggle it in, but it turns demonic and starts attacking my throat and face...I hold it at arms length by the throat, twisting its body round 365 degrees many times, but it is still going for me. Screaming for help, my friends attempt to get it off me, and we try an exorcism on it which fails. We stuff its mouth with socks, but it moves them around and keeps looking at me out of its half-shut green eyes.

The dog feigns death, after spitting out the communion wafer we'd put in its mouth.

Then I woke up, in the dark...absolutely bloody terrified. Lying in the dark in abject terror. Even putting the light on didn't help, so I got up and have written it down in an attempt to exorcise it...pathetic attempt at catharsis.

...I usually only have these dreams if I overindulge on red wine...but this time it's stress and exhaustion from yesterdays rehearsals *grumble*

Still calming down now, cranky and jumpy.

[User Picture]From: mehdi_caps
2004-03-06 08:20 pm (UTC)
*big one-hour long hug*

Watch a movie, and hold your Droopy (to make it up again with the canine species).
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-03-06 08:50 pm (UTC)
*is hugging her snoopy still*

(just got up again for a cup of tea and to put the tumbledryer on...going to sleep until 7am and then get up for a bath before theatre at 11am)

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From: shepardshadows
2004-03-07 05:01 am (UTC)
Bad dreams. I am no stranger to those. Hmm, I hope you feel better now :( *hugs* You should try not to eat anything for a few hours before you sleep. Eating before sleep tends to induce dreams. More often than not of the bad variety. *more hugs for the vampy girl*
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From: (Anonymous)
2004-03-07 09:02 am (UTC)
ramble on vampy...no one likes you. find a high cliff and jump... if you're a real vampire you should be able to fly like a bat in the day.
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[User Picture]From: mehdi_caps
2004-03-07 04:26 pm (UTC)
What a boring life you must lead if spitting anonymously your venom in other people's journal give you some pleasure.

Vampy can fly but she won't show you. And there are people who like her. None of us is supposed to please everyone on this planet. Why do you waste your time reading things you dislike, for a start? You're pathetic.
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From: (Anonymous)
2004-03-07 04:54 pm (UTC)
You sound like some homosexual in san francisco
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[User Picture]From: mehdi_caps
2004-03-07 08:42 pm (UTC)
It only took you 28 minutes to find this comment and answer. I guess you check this page all the time. Nothing better to do?

Another anonymous comment. Congrats, you have balls.

I'm some heterosexual in France, sorry. You're a bad guesser. You'll show us some talent, one day, perhaps. Not this time.
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[User Picture]From: missvontrapp
2004-03-08 02:29 am (UTC)
Thanks for that Marc:)

Of course, whoever posted this should take note that, as much as this diary remains open, it is primarily for my own enjoyment and a reminder of what I do each day for myself. I don't really care what people other than those on my friends list think about what I post here.

Think about it like this: I post what I like because I like to tell my friends what I've been up to... Those who read this diary and aren't on my friends list are merely lookers-on and don't know me in the same way...voyeurs all of you.

Either way, I may ramble on and on, I type fast, so sue me! You certainly don't have to sit there and read all of it!! Nothing better to do??
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