excitedYesterday's International Women's Day evening at theatre went very very well... I was so INCREDIBLY nervous though!!!
The evening began at 8pm, with a couple of women singing, then there was a choir of 11 years olds singing a couple of songs...then I got up to read 4 of my poems, ending with the 'Eye Drone' one, explaining that I had to go to work at nine lol!! Stuck two fingers up to work as I read the last line (Clock Off) and then left the stage... Got lots and lots of applause and positive comments...but I was shaking SO MUCH that I couldn't even manage to roll myself a cigarette lol!!
EPITHEMIA NOCTURNA (Nov 2003)
Body is a fever
Burning
Aching
A flame-rent crescendo
Faster
Insistent
Body is a fever
Needing
Wanting
Insatiably devouring
Hungry for more
Fire rips through it
Smoldering
Laying waste
Still it burns through the night
And in the ashes
A lingering warmth
A contentment which comforts the heart in its solitude
Yet still a memory of fire
And a wanton desire for its return.
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Choices (Dec 2003)
You take me
You break me
You rent my heart asunder.
I lie here
In ribbons
There's nothing left to plunder.
I'm bleeding
Yet still a candle burned.
I need to
Find my way
But through these tears I'm blinded.
It's time now
For myself
And to be single-minded.
Which way here?
There's choices to be made.
Like a moth to a flame I flew
Over and over.
Not caring should my wings be burned.
Again and again I was sure I could take that pain.
Now from the ashes of the old
A new beginning
For myself and myself alone.
As the Phoenix rises from the flames, now is my time.
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Lethe - An Awakening (Feb 2004)
From Lethe I had dredged myself,
Hauling this carcass sodden from the banks,
To stand, blinking, in the garish light of day;
Crying out, the whole world round:
"Come take me! I am blind and lost!"
The darkness settles;
I am myself once more.
Vague, luminescent shadows flit amongst the trees
as I make my way along that twisting path,
The moon full-lit and glowing as befits her ghastly orb.
Yet, in her I find comfort.
And, enveloping myself in the warm blanket of this night,
I take her hand as she leads me onwards.
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Eye Drone (Mar 2004)
White Walls
Tappity Tap
White Screens
Tappity Tap
Eye count
Eye calculate
Eye percieve
Locked in this box a steady hum --
Hum Drum
Tappity Tap
Flicker and Drone
One bee in an incessant chattering hive
Eye break
Eye multiply
Eye ache
Eye sting
The clock ticks
Tickety Tock
Tappity Tap
And the hour
Drags itself --
Steadily --
Towards its
End
Tappity Tap
Clickety Clock
Clock Off.
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I think it's because, when I perform, I'm a character...mentally 'acting', but when I'm up either singing on my own, playing my 'cello or reading something that I've written (takes me back to the public speaking competitions I used to do...) that's when its no act at all, and there I am laid bare in front of everybody...
Bloody terrifying, but I was more than pleased at the responses I got.
After me, there were several more musical acts...womens choirs and whatnot, then I had to leave at 9pm for work, and Gemma was just beginning a drum'n'bass DJ slot...
I think the evening was mostly music (empowering songs - gah!) so Gemma and I probably stuck out a bit for being different lol!!
I'll get more feedback from Beccy on Wednesday.
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Just booked my Whitby accommodation, next thing to deal with is the travel...train or coach? You decide!! I suppose I'd better haul ass down to the train station and find out later on, before work;)
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